James (February 9, 1965 --- December 25, 2006)
In this poem you are present; but you aren't a shade or vision dancing aimlessly to spooky musiic on quivery stirings; nor a fleeting phantom revealed like strands of cut-glass shards simmering through wisps of Jasmine and Patchouli ascending a wistful wind's whispery mein. Because
I don't know how to conjure ghosts, or how to compose you back to being. Though, I've filled my lips with ink and blown spells-- imaginations and figments of you-- but these shadows refuse to be anything but sullen steaks and somber smudges. Things that aren't you. But I can remember
Jimmy, James, brother, friend
faded blue-jean eyes that would shine impishly whenever you smiled; and
curly hair-- the color of mine-- that grew so long and wild it required bindings and hats to keep it in line.
You loved chocolate-coffee, cigarettes, bandanas, tie-dye, Indian blankets
trippy music, party lights, wind-chimes, barbeque, summer nights;
friends and family, a dog named Cinder, unconventional women, and Nevada in the winter.
With random treasure found along your way you constructed a curious stage; and authored eccentric plays depicting a life less plain; but made believable because as you would often say "It's who I AM, man."
-m 2007
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